It’s another hot day and I’m currently at this restaurant working from there as NEPA has decided not to give us light for almost a week now. And I just thought to send out a newsletter today. And boom, I use my earbuds to listen to music(because i get a lot of vibe by listening to songs while writing) and I’m currently writing with a big smile on my face right now☺️
Hi my love, the last time I sent a newsletter was in February. and wow that’s a looooonnnnnggggg time ago if you ask me but then it’s really not my fault. I really missed writing to you tbh but let me tell you something without holding back, I have really been having issues with being consistent and maybe a little bit of imposter syndrome. I absolutely didn’t forget that I have a newsletter, but inconsistency just got the better part of me and me too I relaxed and let it get into me a lot, but I have decided to kick inconsistency in the butt and try to start being consistent, again. I posted something on my Instagram on Monday about getting things done this week, and in my head I’m thinking if I post about getting things done and I’m not getting things done, does it even make sense? and tbh, I’ve been really productive since Monday even when I know it’s not easy, but I have to still do it regardless. And trust me when I say I am super super excited to start writing back😊
Let me give you a breakdown of what has been happening since the last time I wrote to you. First, I quit my job. Yep you read write, but I got another one just before I quit that one and maybe in my next letter I’d write about why I quit. On 29th of march, my mom, my sister and me, went to visit my dad (you should know where). Because it was exactly three months since he slept. I started to journal. Even though I am also not consistent with it too but I try to still journal, whenever I have things on my mind and bro, it helps me a lot. Because if I want to abuse somebody, I do it in my journal. If someone hurts me, my journal sees it etc. So, instead of talking to the person in some cases, I’d just keep quiet and write it in my journal. I started listening to podcasts. I didn’t know that I had been missing a lot from not listening to podcasts, but I’ve sha started.
I am actively trying to make myself happy. I’m three months in my locs journey. I decided to start my locs journey in January with my short hair and well its still a baby but we’re getting there, lol. I got a lot of “we’re sorry” emails from some places that I did interviews with. I bought books and I suddenly have a new obsession with buying books because I’m already planning on buying new ones this month. Oh I had one situation-ship too, 🙈lol. I know I advised against it in my newsletter of 5 lessons from 5 years of being single but me I still did it because of whatever reasons sef, but I won’t also lie that it wasn’t sweet, because it was sweet, but never again abeg. And please avoid situation-ships by all means, e get why.
Going forward, like I said earlier, I feel like I want to start all over again. And I think it applies to so many things in my life. Right now I’m also learning to take everything easy and one day at a time. I’m learning to trust the process, make memories, and also enjoy every bit of my life. And I’m at the point where I’m trying to break out of my shell of staying inside every time, so I want to be “outside” if you get what I mean. I also want to get a tattoo, and another piercing lol. And when I get it of course you’d see it. Anyways, I don’t want to promise and under deliver on when next I’d send a newsletter but it won’t delay again like this.
I’d actually love to know what you’ve been up to since the last time we spoke. What have you been up to? You can tell me here or better still shoot me a DM on Instagram. I’d actually love to hear from you🤗
Talk to you soon again,
Ife💞
Welcome back, Ifeoluwa. So good to hear from you again. Sorry about all the rejections. The best one will remain. I wish you all the best
Hello Ife…… Welcome back, I personally miss reading your newsletter. And congratulations on your new job, I wish you all the best